Lost in Translation

WHAT-EVERRRR!

2012-01-24T11:17:00.008+05:30

This is crazy!

Just see this------->

Yesterday night, on a whim, did this.
Didn't get it? Zoom the picture dumbos! Aaaand look at the follower count (and then the following count).. Geddit? Ok now we are on the same page.
And I am rolling on the couch laughing at the trivial things in life we give so much attention to.
Allow me to conclude on that philosophical shitty note-- Life moves on.

Oh! It's 2012 already?

2012-01-15T20:30:00.018+05:30

Hi,
Happy New Year!

So it's 2012 and the world is supposed to end by this December. Geeee!! This leaves us with exactly 12 months and 5 days to do what all we wish to do. :)

The beginning of the year was a roller coaster ride for my family. There was an emergency and I can't thank God enough that it all went so smoothly. That one moment when I looked into my mom's eyes and said, "You don't have to worry about me. Consider me as the son of the house!" will stay etched in my mind.

What else? I WANT a new job- a cool, well paying and a stress-free job (which has a non-existent boss!! :D). No I don't mean a showroom mannequin when I use those adjectives for a job! But sigh! do jobs like that still exist?

Changed my twitter handle twice today, out of sheer boredom! I know I could have spent my Sunday hitting on some season's sale shopping in the neighborhood mall but considering my present bankrupt status, any sort of shopping will have to wait till the next salary. But nonetheless, bankrupt or whatever I feel proud of the fact that my past few months' savings came in handy when it was needed the most.
So from @fhrooti, the twitter handle oscillated between @SpeckOnEarth and @TheCaseStudy and the latter has stuck for the time being. So follow me there?

And finally! I will finally accept the fact (out in the open) that I AM looking for that 'someone special'. Wherever he is, can he make an appearance fast fast fast? *insert shy smile and rosy blush*

Now what? I don't know why but I've just not been able to finish 'The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand'. I'm on Pg 634 and the dialogoues-that-seem-to-go-forvever between Keating and Toohey is so yawn-inducing. But hey, I did like the book. Have also penned down a review too on some book site. Most of the book was finished in the Metro while travelling to work. But you know how bloody chilly the Delhi winters can get, so reading while travelling has been kept aside for another month.

Okay! Too much khichdi in one post. Will meet again. So hungry man. Have had no lunch today. Need to get into that warm blanket soon. It's a moody working Monday tomorrow..Ciao!

'Coz we end up forcing a smile..

2011-11-15T13:28:00.015+05:30

Being optimistic is so difficult, folks! When you are feeling down and out, you cannot force yourself to plaster a smile across the face just because protocol says so!!

That feeling when the heart feels all clogged and thunderstorm-y and the world expects you to be cheerful. What crap? But then emotions were meant to be felt in a certain way, right. That's why there are nine of them. They didn't categorize and define navarasas for kicks!

Trying to be positive and being positive are two different things.
I want to be happy. Everyone does. What is new in that? How to shake off sadness like magic?
Ideas?

1. Inhale nitrous oxide
2. Do laughter yoga
(I have tried none of them)

I am angry all the time. I mean most of the time. I want to shout at the top of my lungs to express anger in a positive way (sad thing, I NEVER get to do that. Not even in my room coz 'what will the parents/neighbors/ tom dick harry think' type thought crops up!) Bah! No outlet for anger. Even if I end up shouting a teeny weeny bit, the world has this amazing ability to point fingers at ME and blame me for my problems! Silly people. Seems like I am the only one who has read this news piece where they claimed bottling up anger can lead to dangerous diseases in the long run.

Thank God I didn't end up becoming an air hostess! Meh.

When YOU happen

2011-11-08T13:34:00.000+05:30

When YOU happen,
It will be surreal.
It will be unstated.

When YOU happen,
We won't be shouting from the rooftops.
We won't be proving our worth to each other.

When YOU happen,
We won't be constantly reassuring each other.
We won't be saying it all the time.

When YOU happen,
It will be effortless.
It will be magical..

The fish that climbes trees

2011-10-19T17:52:00.001+05:30

"If you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid." –Albert Einstein.

Read this somewhere. And it has got me thinking. Why?
'Coz this so applies to my life. Ha Ha! (Yeah, stop grinning. It ain't funny!!)

The fish is trying to jump out of the coffee cup or what?

Now go back to what you were doing before you landed here.

Will I? Will I not?

2011-10-03T13:35:00.000+05:30

It's been 6 months here and I haven't quit yet!! Well, that IS an achievement. :)
The last time I sticked around with an organization for 6 months was when I was 19 and working in that big shot of a hospitality chain. And after that, I've never had the patience to cross that first 6 months window.
Now will I stick around for another 6 months to cover that 1 year window? THAT only time will tell. Ha!
Blame it on my impulsive self, I take decisions on the spur of the moment. All planning goes down the drains, usually. Now I've this picture in my head which shows me shouting at my boss, throwing away papers and stuff, creating a scene in the office and then quitting for once and for all (Trust me, it's not even remotely funny! Though it may be ironically funny!) :|
Let me ask you a question- Event management sounds sexy, right? Now Do I share the same views- Take a guess?
Anyway, I've got work to do. I shouldn't be eating away into the time which requires me to do productive work for the company, right? So here I go. See you around?

P.S.- Do people still read my blog? Drop in a mail and say YES you do. Bye..

Bits and pieces

2011-06-12T21:18:00.000+05:30

Almost six months since I last updated this blog! Sigh.
A lot of things have happened in the last few months. Yes Yes- A lot!
New job happened. Not sure whether this is what I want to do. The problem is, I want to do so many things at one go that I don't know where to start from.
Till a few months ago, the idea of moving out of Delhi and setting base in a different city excited me. Not anymore. I've come to realize that this is where I want to be.
I've also been experimenting. Details later.
I also have a huge list of to-do things. Different lists for different purposes: ambition lists, priorities lists, shopping lists, 5 year plan lists etc. :)
Why do I feel that I'm hugely messed up in my head? When things get weird, I end up reminding myself that it's just a phase. The thing is, it happens a lot. ...

P.S- This teeny weeny post comes out of sheer desperation to update something on this space! More coming soon..!

I think. I talk. You listen. You forget!

2011-01-23T16:18:00.005+05:30

Mindless rambling ahead
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How do you plan things? Have you ever wondered if you had not been behaving the way you were all this while, how else would you've behaved? Sometimes you think A in your head, but B comes out of your mouth. You don't do it intentionally, something, like a force makes you do it. I don't know what it is, but you want to say something, but when the thoughts transform into words, it ends up as something else. Strange but true! Not every emotion, not every thought can be rightly expressed. You may want to term them as inexplicable feelings. The funny thing about them is, in your head you're pretty sure of what you want to say but when it comes down to verbalizing it, you end up not being sure!

Have you tried speaking to yourself? As in, shutting up yourself in a room and having a heart to heart chat with your own self, whenever you feel down and out? If you haven't, then try it. It's so therapeutic. You feel the stress melting away into nothingness. When you think about your problems in your mind, the so called problems have this tendency to attach wings by itself and swell up into bigger monsters. And you don't even realize, all this is happening in your head and not in reality. That's when talking to yourself helps. You may just wanna record your ramblings in your phone and then listen to it afterwards. Trust me, you'll just laugh it off! So all that you thought was weird ends up seeming trivial.

Have you noticed, how everyone keeps telling you about having your life sorted out. That you need to have certain goals in life to make your life seem worthwhile, to you. What if you don't know about yourself? What if, you're one of those individuals who have a lot going on in their mind and picture them clearly in their head but still cannot get down to turning them into reality? Does it happen with you? Or do you belong to that category of people who have their whole life charted out in their diary? You're not sure, where to start from, what path to take?

Life is funny. Life is weird. You have one life to live. One fine day, you wake up, sit down and notice where you're headed to. Having your life figured out is perhaps, the most difficult things to do. Have you figured it out? Do you believe in taking each day as it comes and discovering new things about yourself? Have I figured it out yet? No. Things are jumbled up in my mind. There's so much to do, so much to learn, so many moments to live.

I didn't intend this post to sound like just another 'life post'. The other day, FB told me that I used the word 'life' 13 times in my status updates last year!! And the word 'people' 17 times. Gosh! I kept wondering, when did I become so philosophical? Talking about the aspects of life is, to some extent, directly proportional to philosophy. Phew! I need the spice back in my posts. Guess I should feed myself with some PJs to knock some humor in my head. By the way, I'm more active on twitter. I keep doling out funny one-liners every now and then out there, atleast that's what the people say. =)

When I'm not here, you can always find me here. People keep asking me whether I've stopped writing and I want to tell them, "Hell No!". Then I realized, you cannot always get away with excuses like 'writer's block' (even though that may be true), every single time, coz that makes you feel as if you're some great writer and people have been dying to read your next post!! I've been tweeting like a maniac, you see. *shy school girl grin*
See you around, very soon, I promise. :]

Pic Courtesy: Pilfered from Google

The baby in the Metro coach

2010-11-14T14:49:00.004+05:30

The other day I was travelling by the Metro train in one of their brand new ladies coaches (Aren’t we lucky we have dedicated coaches for our sex?). It was around 10.30 in the morning and the coach wasn’t much crowded. Since there were no vacant seats, I was standing. There was this baby girl, around one and a half years of age busy playing and strolling around the coach. Her mother, who was sitting was having a hard time in making the baby sit on her lap. She was a hyperactive kid and wouldn’t listen to her mother. This kid had a milk bottle in her hand and was running around the coach as she would do in her own home. Meanwhile, all the ladies in the coach were having a nice time watching the baby’s antics. Since she was a little kid who had probably just learnt how to walk, she tended to lose balance whenever the train stopped or moved and there wasn’t a single lady who hadn’t held her to prevent her from falling. She had become the star of the coach! I, on my part, was just watching the whole thing and didn’t try to hold her even once coz I knew the other girls standing next to me would anyway do it. May be the reason behind my apparent lack of interest was the fact that I was not in a good mood that day, so I simply avoided the baby though I did smile at few of her actions.

If you are one of those who has no idea how the metro coach looks from inside, this is how it looks:

Suddenly the baby went towards one side and started touching and tried to explore some random technical black component on the side of the coach. An aunty who was delighted with this act of hers, commented to her mother, “Badi hokar technician banegi” (She’ll grow up to be a technician). I almost wanted to tell that aunty to spare her from the adult world ideologies of what’s right for the kid. For Chrissake, she’s just a toddler. Why can’t these people keep their unsolicited suggestions to themselves and just let the kids do their own thing? Will they never learn? ‘N’ number of movies have been made on the subject, but they’ll never stop imposing their views, even if the kid has just barely learnt how to talk.

In the meantime, I got a seat right opposite her mother and was watching the whole thing. All this while, the baby had failed to notice me. Then it happened! The baby looked at me and then at my hands. She looked intently for about 15 seconds and then came running towards me. It then occurred to me that she had taken a fancy for my phone, which is nothing but a poor Nokia 6300. Though it looks just about fine, the phone is so battered that I’ve to keep it’s body tied with a rubber band to avoid the parts from falling off (Yeah, I’ve never found out the time to repair the damn thing!). Mind you, dear readers, there were much better hi-tech cell phones in the hands of better looking girls inside that coach, but this little girl, who till this time was happy in her own world, playing, running around, shaking that milk bottle in her hand, laughing and making the women in the coach laugh along with her had to get enamored by my tattered phone! She tried to take the phone from me, obviously expecting that I’ll give it happily to her. But deep inside my mind, I was wondering what made the little thing fall for my phone. Was it the green colored rubber band tied around it? Every other woman’s eyes were on me. The coach was silent. The girl who was the star till now made the spotlight turn to me. My mind raced in those few seconds: should I give it to her or not was the question. Moreover, I had to get down at the next station. With little time left with me and the baby on the verge of crying seeing my not-so-favorable response, I was in a fix! I finally decided not to give it in her hands but let her touch the thing. But can that satisfy a baby? No. A baby likes to possess the thing that catches her fancy. They love to take it in their own hands, touch it, smell it, taste it, twist it and after getting the hang of it, throw it. That’s their psychology.

And here she was surprised by my attitude (obviously, she was used to adults giving in to her demands), she tried to snatch it from me once, twice, thrice, but the only thing I let her do was touch the phone. I was conscious of the many eyes on me and was confused whether I was doing the right thing. How was I to know that out of all the ladies present there, she’ll come and make me the center of attraction?

Then she did what kids her age are best at- she started crying. Infact, she howled and went up to her mother making a complaining face. I was embarrassed. I never wanted her to cry and had tried my best (in that limited time) to do what was best, for me and her! Almost by reverse reaction, I gave the phone in her hands but women around said she may drop it off, so her mother gave it back to me. I hid it under my bag and tried to show her that it vanished into thin air (You got to behave like a kid with kids!) But as if mocking me she cried even more loudly. I was feeling bad for inadvertently being made the reason behind her crying. Inane it may sound, but wasn’t the kid happy all this while till she laid her eyes on the stupid phone? I looked around to see the ladies’ reaction: some smiled, some empathized, some let out a sigh, and some sat expressionless.

Her mother was consoling the kid by telling her that the phone actually did vanish and that it no longer existed in my hands. I on my part was showing her my empty hands, hoping this would silence the kid. It then occurred to me that the train had halted at my station. In the melee, I had completely forgotten that this was the station I had to get down at. Before the doors could close, I rushed out picking up my bag and the phone, almost running in daze with questions looming in my head-

Was the mother thinking that her cheerful kid had to cry coz of some random stranger? What was so special about the phone that caught her attention when there were better looking and colorful phones around in girls’ hands? Did the green rubber band make it look so special in her eyes? Did I do the right thing? Should I have given the phone to her to play? But I had to alight at the next station! What were the other ladies thinking? Why would anyone think anything? However funny it may sound, out of all the ladies present in the coach, wasn't I made the scapegoat, and that too by a baby?

Then realization dawned:

1. People don’t think about you, as much as you think they do. Most of the time, they are busy and concerned only with themselves.

2. You are not that important to others (read: people who don’t know you/strangers/random people you travel with on public transport).

3. Kids are like that: they’ll cry at the drop of a hat. You don’t have to feel sorry for yourself if they cried in your presence coz of you. They just need a reason sometimes. That isn’t a deciding factor whether you’ll be good or miserable with them when the situation arises.

4. The adults will never stop forcing career decisions on kids, no matter what their age is. They may even forecast it the moment they are born.

5. You tend to over-estimate yourself sometimes and imagine others noticing and judging you. In reality, it doesn’t happen.

And the last one:

6. You have to be really jobless to write such a long post on a trivial incident like this and jot down lessons learned from it.

Incidentally, it also happens to be the Children's Day today. Ah! Only kids can get their way around anything.

Have you been taken over by Twitter?

2010-10-07T18:43:00.006+05:30

After months, here comes a quickie post, without much deliberation gone into it. It's about a phenomenon which has caught people faffing over and around it like crazy- TWITTER. If you are on Twitter, you'll probably agree with what you are about to read . If you are not on it, what have you been waiting for all this while? Go and make an account you idiots!

Of late it seems, as if the world of 140 characters has taken over my ability to write long paragraphs, or for that matter write a decent enough blogpost here.
Sad, it may be, for my life is being chronicled several times a day within the set parameters of 140 characters and looks like it has taken over my rare long posts. Not just me, but a lot of 'tweetaholics' out there will agree to their new found skill of paraphrasing everything under the sun in nothing more than 140 characters. Most of the time, adjusting and re-adjusting your words to make sure they fit in that prescribed limit. Sometime during 2009, a so-and-so movie star joined Twitter and the others followed suit. Suddenly they started creating waves and Twitter became a rage overnight. That's how it began for me-one fine day, I too started following a couple of actors (by now everyone knows they are on it for their 'much needed' publicity, so they go around faking a what-you-call a 'peek into their lives') and went on to become following all and sundry!

And thus, the world is at your feet. You dispense 'gyaan', give self-made one-liners, proclaim to be the ultimate guru of things, make grand statements, boast about yourself in a subtle way (inspite of being aware that people may be rolling their eyes at you), try to act intelligent (which you may not be otherwise ;)), do anything to grab eyeballs or put in Twitter lingo- get followers! In return, get people to sit up and take notice of you and if you happen to be lucky, get admired for your so called 'witty' self.

When a person starts following you, he agrees to the fact that he is ready to tolerate your nonsense(call it whatever!), crudely put- 'jhelofying' you. But hey! Isn't that cool? Of course, it is. I mean, which person will do that literally in real life, the very act of following (unless, he happens to be a stalker, mesmerized by you!!). Infact, no one in their right minds will go around saying 'Follow Me', unless he happens to be a over zealous tourist guide :D

Some people out there have also come out with a theory that a person's psychological behaviour can be understood by his tweets. BullS**T, I say! The person may just be tweeting for the heck of it, without any rhyme or reason. He may also be trying to portray himself as something he's not. Perhaps he just wants to join the league. Sometimes, it is just plain old FUN !

Now comes, the world of twitter handles (usernames, to you twitter ignorants!)
You get the weirdest and the whackiest of them served to you on a platter here. Pick anyone that catches your fancy and boo! follow them. :D
If you were, by any chance, living in an alien world all this while, allow me the chance to educate you a bit to shake off that slumber you were in: Right from the corporate honcho to the mechanic to the girl/boy/bai next door(albeit the last one may be in disguise!) are tweeting like mad these days.

A Twitter Survival Tip: Since product uniqueness is the key to success in the market these days, if you are sophisticated enough, you may package yourself as a i-know-it-all maid and capture the hearts of the 'aam aadmi' looking for their daily dose of humour, by sounding like a damsel in distress. Fuel their imagination, give them spicy nuggets of conspiracy-inducing news and just faff oops.. tweet away to glory!! The more masaledar your tweets are, the more will the 'tweeple' talk about you. Provoke them in any way you want. Also make sure you get featured in the weekly 'Follow Friday' hashtags. Some whackos out there have made sure that even dead people tweet!! (Don't you shudder! :P) So you still have a Michael Jackson and a Gandhi tweeting and making people jump off their seats. Ha! even movie characters like Gabbar Singh can be found here! With their multiple fake profiles and huge number of followers, they assure that they still remain in people's minds, so what if they are long gone!! Make sure you are also among them, just to be in sync with the sweet chaos around and laugh your heads off.

People have been frantically tweeting about their activities 24X7, from the web, from fancy gadgets, from phones and what not! Imagine a person in the middle of a corporate-ish meeting going "My boss sucks. He doesn't value my views." on his iPhone and the next moment going "Just got fired. Yay!". He probably feels on-top-of-the-world which in reality happens to be a deep-in-shit situation as he's getting congratulatory tweets from his followers across the world. So you see, it's a vicious circle of addiction. You maybe jobless, sitting at home doing nothing, but if you can dish out pearls of wisdom on twitter, you are one happy soul. You become contended just being that(a maniacal tweeter!), since you have a fan following who make it a point to religiously massage your egos and lift your dampening spirits. What a beautiful world, indeed!

Moral of the story: If you find yourself in this crazy loop of tweeting frenzy, you may have realized that life has become, more or less, all about losing yourself in the 'timeline'. Just enjoy the attention till it lasts. And remember, that timeline of yours is just a reminder of how many people you dare follow, which you may be otherwise embarrassed of even talking to in real life. Inflated egos cease to exist here. All are 'friends', atleast in the virtual world!

P.S- You may also follow the person behind the post at http://twitter.com/Fhrooti, only if you love nonsense being rolled out at timely intervals.

@Fhrooti

P.P.S- The aim behind this post is not to gather followers and please do not read between the lines! ;D Adios!

WAKE UP BLOG! DON’T YOU DARE SLEEP!! LOOK AT WHAT HAPPENED TO OUR MEN!!!

2010-07-15T22:44:00.004+05:30

This blog seems to be dead! Ugh!
High time I wrote something. It’s nothing to do with proving my writing skills (or the utter lack of it!! :D) to the world outside, but just to give solace to myself that I can still manage to jot down something of my own.

Oh! BTW there are ‘n’ number of posts still lying in my drafts folder which never saw the light of the day. Each time I thought of posting them, they either needed editing or I was just being plain lazy to publish them. Now, beat that! Excuses done, now let’s get down to business.

Okay, I am presently in a very grumpy and cranky mood. Oh! Did I just use two synonyms together? All right, consider it as grumpy X 2= f*****g irritated.

A lot of things have happened in the past few months.
I passed out of B-school, got placed in that oh-so-famous group of a company, went to Mumbai for induction, had the most awesome time of my life there, fell in love with that place and tada! have a job but guess what? the usual- I am stuck in a bland job (Did I say anything new? No.) Happens to the best of us. That’s how I’ll console myself. Meh!

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*Digresses* *rattles on from here*

What happened to all the men, oh dear lord?

They seem to be chickening out of situations, have suddenly become so coy and demure (yes, that’s exactly what they are becoming!!!!). Why can’t they leave all that to the ladies? After all, it’s they who are supposed to be shy and all that. Right?

They have stopped taking initiatives in key situations, can’t seem to be getting evident hints (forget subtle hints :/). I have a serious doubt here. Are they just being plain stupid or acting as if they are not understanding things? You are not dumbheads. Are you?

Infact, poor guys don't know how boring they have become nowadays. Learn something from your contemporaries people. With this I am not asking you to be chivalrous or anything. We can handle ourselves, and you know that. Just let your inner demons out!! Surprised? Go, figure.
The worst part is when they put on a fake demeanor of being super busy and all that, when they are not. Don't make an ass out of yourself. Whom are you fooling?

Are the norms being reversed, the clichés being questioned?
Are the gender roles being swapped?
Women are increasingly becoming straightforward. They are not shying away from taking the first step. They won’t wait any longer, they don't need to!!

It’s a duvidhajanak situation- a serious concern which needs to be addressed. We can’t let the men move into a shell and then wait to be serenaded in a grand old school type of way. They have lost all that qualities somewhere during the evolution process. Hmph!

Come out guys, out of that cocoon and that protective shield which you have crafted around yourself. Look at what you have made out of yourself. If you have problems being normal, lay your hands on some book which teaches you the basics of your gender traits, something like 'The roles men play'(a random bogus title, given as a way of example). Read, memorize and implement your roles and how you are supposed to be.*chuckles* Ok, that's just an idea. I guess you are smart enough to prevent and stop any further damage to your species ;)
And most importantly, stop acting like morons coz you are not. Why fake it out? Re-evaluate yourself. Hope you know what I mean.

Stop being wimps. Just be what you are supposed to be (and used to be once)- MEN!!!

Tag time- 40 random questions answered

2010-02-12T17:15:00.022+05:30

I have been tagged by Shikha

And this tag requires me to answer 40 random questions about me. So here it goes:-

1. What is your current obsession?

On grounds of sounding narcissistic, I am (and have always been) obsessed with me! Can't help it :|

And I clearly don't think it's a personality disorder coz narcissism is something which one is born with and has no control over (profound thought!! *winks*)

2. What are you wearing today?

I am in my pj's, tee and a pullover..decent enough home wear :D

3. What's for dinner?

Ah! Food!! Staying away from home has made me realize the importance of previously taken for granted & overlooked mom ke haath ka swadisht khana. Therefore most of the times I am famished and have to settle in for whatever the maid out here cooks.

4. What’s the last thing you bought?

Maggi double pack and 2 Kit Kats (whenever I go out buying something for myself, I make it a point to never return without a bar of chocolate in my pocket :D)

5. What are you listening to right now?

The moment I heard Gwen Stefani crooning "Rich Girl", I fell in love with the track, as a result of which it's just all over the place, from the phone to the lappy & now my ringtone.The lyrics fairly describe the emotions/aspirations running through my mind these days !!

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you?

The very fact that she belongs to the IIM automatically makes me worship her!! Apart from that, Shikha is an amazing person and I absolutely adore the way she writes and puts her views & thoughts across. I would love to meet her one day :)

7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?

Whoa! That's something! It would be Paris for sure.

8. What are your must-have pieces for summer?

Lots of whites in my wardrobe, sunscreen, deos.

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?

Umm.. anywhere where the sea, sun and sand coincide.. I am in dire need for a break and I desperately want to be away from this hustle-bustle. Give me some peace and quiet man!

10. Which language do you want to learn?

I got to learn a bit of German some years ago and picked it up so well in no time. Now I want to do an extensive German language course asap. Then comes French. Oh! French classes start from tomorrow in college :)

11. What’s your favourite quote?

"This too shall pass", "Well behaved girls seldom make history".

12. Who do you want to meet right now?

Since the V-Day is approaching and I don't have a 'someone special', I would love to meet someone interesting rightaway. I guess it's okay to shed one's feminist ideologies during times like these and behave in sync with the mush around !! :D

13. What is your favourite colour?

Black rules but maroon comes a close second.

14. Give us 3 styling tips that work for you.

I am just not a 'style' person, for I get hell lazy and just don't do anything close to the word 'style' or getting dressed up. These 3 things work for me( they are oh-so-normal things!!):-

Eyeliner(not on the eyelids but below the lower lashes!), filed nails and a lip balm.

15. What is your dream job?

I used to have a diverse range of options earlier, a part of the description can be found here

The latest wish doing the rounds in my brain is the one wherein I see myself becoming the writer of a book one day!!(Holy jeez!)

Therefore, as of now I would be more than happy to settle in for a job (read: corporate world thingy) which pays me great and would not become a pain in the a** in the long run.( I know it's felony to think on those lines considering the fact that lecturers try hard all the time to nail thoughts like "Be prepared to slog hard in the beginning of your career and don't expect sky high salaries now n blah blah " into our brains, but who cares!

16. What's your favorite magazine?

People. They get most of the hidden things out of the closet and it's true all the time and they have amazing pictures- who doesn't love gossip, glamor n filmstars combined?? ( If you don't, please go n get a life!)

p.s.- If any of the lecturer or future job recruiter is reading this, Sorry, but 2 yrs down the line and I still don't have the patience to go through all those biz mags. They are just not my cup of tea and I have no qualms in admitting the fact- I simply don't get it nor do I have a great interest in them.

17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on?

Oh! that's not much :P But I'll buy books and denims.

18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas?

I have seen girls in my college doing the most outrageous things ever, something I have no idea where they picked it from!! Peacock green nail paint on hands with stark navy blue nail paint on toenails, sometimes combined with 2 entirely different shades on each fingers. And ofcourse you can never file this stupid stuff under nail art!! Such hideous things :|

19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon?

Aishwarya Rai.There may be a zillion fans out there, but she is clearly over-rated, not only in terms of style, but everything!

20. What kind of haircut do you prefer?

I don't know the names of most of the haircuts around, and I also don't go in for regular haircuts, coz I have never been happy with the kind of hair I have- it's just so unmanageable & messy(meh!) so I never really care what kind of hairstyle I have at any given point of time. It's always tied up in a pony.

21. What are you going to do after this?

Will transfer the movies in my lappy to DVDs. The disks are full and I need to give the poor thing some breathing space. Ha!

22. What are your favorite movies?

I just love rom-coms and have a collection of them. Basically any movie which has Hugh Grant in it- Notting Hill, Bridget Jones Diary ..and the list continues

23. What inspires you?
Inspirational real stories, any moving and thoughtful clip.

24. What do your friends call you most commonly?
I have always hated the fact that my name cannot be shortened into a nickname. Everyone calls me Shruti.

25. Would you prefer coffee or tea?
Though I love coffee, I normally prefer tea, and I am actually sipping on a huge cup of tea while I do this tag :D

26. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed?
I shut myself out completely, sometimes vent out to mom but nothing works as crying- It's the ultimate stressbuster, a few tears down and I end up feeling absolutely fine!

27. What makes you go wild?
Wild, as in what sense? *wonders*.

28. Which other blogs do you love visiting?
All my favorie blogs have been blogrolled here.

29. Favorite Dessert/Sweet?
I have a sweet-tooth so it would be unfair on my part to pick one ;)
But still I'll do that- Gulab jamun and Gajar ka Halwa taste heavenly.

30. How many tabs are turned on in ur browser right now?
Five

31. Favorite Season?
Spring. Absolutely adore this time when you are out of all the heavy woolens and scorching summer is yet to set in. The weather is just so perfect :)

32. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me?
I can't cook to save my life!! The only fare I can dish out for you would be Maggi and tea.

33. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you?
Give them a piece of my mind and then cut off all contacts. I am very stubborn in this regard and once a person has gained entry into my hate list, I'll neither forget nor forgive. I am no saint to forgive a person who hurts me.

34. What are you afraid of the most?

Creepy crawly creatures! Rats, lizards and all the similar things.

35. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?

Oh! Why am I looking so disheveled and dilapidated? :D

36. What brings a smile on your face instantly?

Anything which makes me feel good at that moment- a genuine compliment, a nice day at work, chocolates, being given a surprise which turns out to be something I had longed for….

37. A word that you say a lot?

I have this habit of saying “Ahan” quite a lot just to make the other person aware that I am listening to him, “Oh my God” follows closely.

38. When was the last time you did something nice?

And I feel this question has put me in 'ponder' mode!! Why can’t I recollect ?? Darn!

39. What would you do if you were made President of India for one day?

One day is seriously not a big deal! But, if the govt. can give me a guarantee that they would seriously implement my rule, then I would want death sentence for rapists being immediately implemented. I have always felt that men in this part of the world can easily get away after committing the most heinous of all crime against women only because law in this regard is very weak.

40. Do you Know who Master SHIFU is?

I have no grave idea.

And now I tag Artz Amith Nidhi Mridu Ste Amit Chandrika Abhinav Dhanya Peter Sandeep

A new year post- Looking back and looking ahead..

2009-12-31T20:45:00.003+05:30

It's overwhelming to see how time flies away! Memories of the past just whisked past me a few hours ago when I was trying to catch a wink after a tiring day of giving an exam. It had only been a while and I woke up startled. Tossing and turning, I was trying to sleep but then all those sad & happy moments just flash-backed its way through my mind, not just the incidents of the present year but also the memories that made up the decade that is going to end in a few hours from now.

2010 is going to be a milestone year, more so as it's the beginning of a new decade. And it were these digits which were reiterating in my mind. I still remember the starting of this millennium and everyone was making such a big fuss about 2000 being a landmark year. I vividly remember the new year's eve back then. I was 13 and in standard 8th and as excited as any other teenager that day. We had brought lots of cakes and were playing some great music the whole evening. And 'Titanic' was being shown for the first time on Star Movies that night. Till about a few years back, all major releases where premiered on the small screen after a gap of about 3-4 years, so it was a big deal back then. Before the X'mas holidays begun that year, some of my friends had decided to celebrate the new year by sitting at home and watching Titanic and yes, I was also one of them :) We guys had gone onto lengths discussing the movie and specially dissecting the make-out scenes(over enthusiastic teens that we were!! :D)
I was excited because I was gonna watch it for the 1st time(imagine 3 years after it released inspite of the hype it had!). So mom n me saw it and I remember giving shy smiles to her during the so called 'scenes'.

Fast forward to this day. It's been 10 years since the Titanic night and things are so different. I have so many things at my disposal which I never had back then. I am 10 years more matured, more aware of things, and in a better mental shape. And also the adage that I swear by- "This too shall pass" holds so true that one realizes it only when the transformation of a bad phase into a good phase happens. Nothing ever was, nor will be permanent. One understands the significance of what happened or not happened much much later in time. So many of them feels just right today, which at one point of time felt so so bad and one would be wallowing in self-pity over them.

I have never ever in my life, made any new year resolutions. Why? Maybe coz I have never really given a thought to it. Was it coz I have never been dead serious about life or plans? I have no idea. Maybe I just don't believe in binding my life to a list of pre-determined activities. Though I don't deny that I have planned things or activities in life. It feels great jotting down a "Things to do" list, but somehow there would be rarely a 10 on ten tick percentage on it. Planning is great but sometimes unplanned and 'out of the blue' incidents go a long way in changing the track of life and I would affirm, has happened a lot of times with me.

Why do I feel 2010 is going to be milestone year?

Reason 1- Mainly coz of the fact that college will be ending and as of now I have no plans of studying anything major in the future, unless destiny and God has some other plans for me. I still can't believe that I have managed to survive in this place. I still remember all that quitting plans I had made when I realized the kind of subjects that they taught in 1st yr MBA was just not my cup of tea and had almost deduced that MBA eligibility criteria should be commerce grads & not sciencies n arties like me. It was not without difficulties that I managed to stick on with this place. Counting the years on fingers gives an ultimate high..2008..2009.. n now 2010. It feels like yesterday when I had stepped in that hostel and hated it to the core. How I had to keep a smiling face and accommodating persona throughout first year in that place dealing with a psycho roommate! I had never been more happy when I left that place and thank God, my place of stay this year was a lot peaceful. I have mentioned the feeling of hatred that I have felt towards the college in earlier posts, but I am surprised by the change in my attitude towards the college and friends here. I have lately realized that accepting them as they are, allowing them a sneak peek into your life, opening up to them, mingling freely and doing stupid activities gives a sense of utmost joy & also negates the pressure the college puts on you to a great extent .Group studies, work load, projects and assignments have never been more fun as it's now. Things are in great shape now.

Reason 2- More than anything else. I am sure this year is going to be doubly hectic with all that job hunting process and the seemingly eternal never ending exams that my college puts me through.

I don't know why but I feel a strong urge now to thank my folks for giving me everything- the resources to study,the love, affection and support. No matter how bad or good I am feeling, I know they are just a call away and I can vent to my heart's content with them. Who else but my parents have the patience to listen to my wails? I have lost count of the number of times I have subjected them to being my sounding board! I know I get difficult sometimes but I am not bad either! Thank you mom for being my biggest support system and thank you dad for just being there and understanding me. Love you :)

I will also never forget my boss at Ranbaxy- the ultimate epitome of a female authoritarian boss! Nor will I ever forget her words and whatever she said to me. Towards the end of the stint there, she may have been a bit harsh, but it all feels 'at place' now. She will be an icon for life. It was only after my term there that all the management fundas fell into place and into my brains. I learnt a lot and will value the time spent there forever.

Life sure is one big mystery. You never know what's gonna happen tomorrow and what each day will unfold for you. But the mystery is what makes it exciting. As I have always felt, predictability is boring and it's exciting to be taken unawares(obviously in a good way!).
With this I would use this space to wish everyone a super happy, cheerful and prosperous new year filled with great moments, and of course I wish myself the same.

Bidding adieu to 2009..n here's welcoming 2010 with glee! Happy new year :)

You are my 'Temptation'!

2009-12-08T02:40:00.003+05:30

With you it's never enough.
I could be admiring you, over & over again,
and never get bored of your beauty.
It's not my fault you look so appealing.

Whenever I see you, it's so hard to resist.
The temptation you invoke in me
is so overpowering.
You are alluring as hell!

The times I get to meet you
is few & far in between.
But as & when it happens
I feel like devouring you then & there.

With your dark brown complexion
you are a treat for my eyes!
Baby try to meet me more often.
Don't you want to see me contented?

Can't help controlling my urge when you're around.
All I wanna do is taste you ,
And let that taste linger on my lips,
tickling my wicked taste buds.

I love you!
You bring a smile on my face.
You remind me of forbidden pleasures.
You are my one & only delight.
You are the sinful 'chocolate truffle'!!

P.S- Readers may please note that this poem is dedicated to the edible chocolate truffle which happens to be one of my favorite things in the world.Therefore the muse here is a non-living thing as opposed to a living thing! Though one can't deny the inspiration behind writing in innuendos being a living person.Thus the readers are free to let their imagination run haywire while delving over the suggestive tone of the lines.

Things that are bothering me presently!

2009-12-04T01:50:00.000+05:30

1. My routine- Why on earth do I wake up at 6 a.m. in the harsh Delhi winters, almost 3 hrs before I leave for college? Am I sincere, dedicated student or a chronic early-riser? The answer is a big NO. Then pray why? *wonders*

2. Winters- My relationship with this season has been a love-hate thingy. I love it coz of the sunshine, good food, great clothes, long nights, good sleep. I hate it coz of the dark broody early mornings, freezing water, dry skin, cough-cold..

3. College- 1 year and 4 months into this place and my opinion about it has still not changed. It sucks! Though this term has been interesting, thanks to one particular lecturer who makes the class as lively and exciting as he is. Everyone seems to be going gaga over him, specially the girls. *chuckles*

4. Dissertation- For the uninitiated it is the winter project(some research stuff) which I have to submit asap. And I just don't feel like doing it. Mainly coz of the fact, my summer project(something for I worked like REAL HARD) was inaccurately evaluated by the bee-skool(sic!) and some losers were freely awarded grades, so there the motivation to work hard again, goes out of the window!

5. 24*7 Internet- This was a boon initially, but it seems to have transformed my life completely. I am overtly dependent on it and my life seems to be nauseatingly revolving around it. And it's kind of a curse now.

6. Mr X- The story is still the same. Except for the fact that he managed to startle me 2 days back with something he said. He's such a sweetheart. God bless him!

7. Uncertainty- I still don't seem to have any clear ideas about my plans, forget making strategies that is so heartily expected out of an MBA student. So I can safely say that "Hey! I don't know where will I be or what will I be doing 6 months down the line." (I sincerely hope my future recruiter is not reading this one!)

8. Insomnia- Well yes I am kind of an insomniac, though the degree is not sky-high. It does attack sometimes and it's funny coz I so wanna crash down but I end up doing nonsensical activities bartering my love for a good night's sleep.

9. Hairstyle- Funny but I am forever confused between wearing my hair long or short! For once I want all the curls & length to remain but the very next moment I feel like getting them chopped off & straightened. Dilemma man!

10. Staying away- It's great staying away from folks for a host of granted reasons. But then I also keep travelling every 15 days or so back home. So most of the time my mind is in a half-here half-there kind of a situation.

.. and lots more!

That last phone call!

2009-11-03T01:33:00.007+05:30

It's a new sense of calmness.What should I say? Maybe I am feeling relaxed now. I am happy that this conversation happened. And trust me it has helped me a lot in realigning a whole lot of different issues which were bothering me for quite a long time and also lessening the impact of one major emotion of restlessness.The best feeling which I have had in quite a long time.

The worst feeling in the whole world is when people tend to misunderstand you and you feel completely helpless, as right in front of your eyes, things seem to slip off your hands and get out of control.You know things are getting bad, but you just can't seem to put things in order. You want to re-order things, make the person sit and also make him understand what you are actually trying to say, but you feel bound & helpless.Things get bad and you can't seem to do anything!
Sometimes it's just the opposite effect- you try to say something, but the meaning which comes out of it turns out to be the opposite.

And now after that li'l talk, I feel as if all that negativity has been removed. Thank you X for having that heart to pick up that phone and call me up. Words are not enough when I want to describe the serenity washing through my heart and soul, the reason of the harmony I feel and the reason of that wide smile across my face.
Meanwhile, during the last few days when I was sulking,I did some weird things as in, nothing major, just a little bit online mess- deleting stuff,getting my name removed from the list of some very dear things & now I am regretting it, specially deleting that post(the meaning of which only you could decipher), that most special and my most loved post- sorry for having deleted it.Each and every word of it is still true and will be true forever!

Also if some of you(some and that one person I feel deeply attached to) realize in the future something amiss(obviously here in the virtual world, anything even remotely related to me), please don't curse me! Just forgive me by taking it as some random online anger that was shown- your position here in my heart is right here- safe, snug and secure! Nobody or anything for that matter can shake off the affection for you.
Anger management lessons anyone? I seriously need to attend a couple of them!!

Things are actually not as bad as one thinks or imagines it to be. There in the mind we happily blow it out of proportion by imagining all the weirdest & negative things and sit and feel bad(or sulk) in return. Now I actually understand the importance of conversation in any relationship- be it a parent- child, teacher-student, among friends, lovers etc. Why to keep it boiling inside? If there is even an iota of doubt, insecurity or negativity, just vent it out, spit it out..talk it out. A heart to heart talk(& I don't mean talk with any random person, talk with that one person who is the reason behind that figment of wild imagination) solves half of the problems. The moment we have a sincere open discussion, all that pent up bad feelings tend to evaporate in a jiffy, thereby leaving you so light-headed and free.

Now having listened to you, your views, even your dilemmas, and everything you had to say, you have changed a bit of my earlier opinions about you. Though it has always been good, it's now more positive, with a bit more vibrant colors added to it. I would definitely, no matter what, never want to decrease the amount of whatever little intensity of this beautiful friendship.

As they say, not all relationships can be named. Till then let me be safe in tagging this relationship in the safe realms of pure friendship.

P.S- A soulmate has never stood true to his name when subjected to one-sided love!

De-clutter !

2009-09-25T08:19:00.007+05:30

Clutter is bad. It fills one's life with misery.
Why to clutter life when it is already filled with enough woes? So I am now taking out time to specifically remove all kinds of mess from different parts of my life. Its tiring being constantly depressed and putting on masks each & every time.

Sometimes one just has to let go. There are things which are just not meant to be and thinking forever about it is just not worth it. Old and useless things have to be discarded to allow new and better things in life. Clutter also takes up space both physical and mental , in the process giving in a lot of negative energy to the already muddled up life. We all have a habit of collecting, keeping and never disposing off things in the name of memories and remembrance. It's a futile thing to do because things happen, and they happen for a reason and accumulating things related to them only adds up to the so called clutter.

A physical clutter can be thrown off but what about the mental clutter which is stagnant and doesn't get disposed off even if one wishes to? Therein lies the challenge, a human dilemma!

P.S- For the time being,I have moderated my comments section, so if by any chance, it takes some time to appear here, kindly bear with me. Cheers!

A forgotten verse

2009-09-24T11:01:00.006+05:30

My life at present more or less corresponds to the following lines.
(Chanced upon in HT more than a decade ago)

The Glory of the sun

Every evening,

When the day meets the dusk,

I sit in my window and watch

The sinking sun.

When the light fades away slowly,

And the hours grow quietly and lonely,

My heart too sinks within my soul, inspired

For I know not if I will see

The glory of the sun again.

A fact of life

2009-07-25T21:45:00.001+05:30

“The best way to survive in this world is not to let yourself be overpowered by emotions, sentiments, temptations and love coz once you give in, it’s very difficult to come back to your normal self. That’s the only way you can maintain the sanity of your mind.”

Well I am clearly wasting my time!

2009-07-04T21:31:00.013+05:30

I have no idea what's up with me lately. The whole project thing is getting on my nerves. Initially when I started it, I was damn excited and was dead sure it will get completed on time but lately I have started ignoring it bigtime. Here am I sitting and whiling away my time, well past the deadline. Now I know why they call it a deadline- You are sure to be dead at the hands of the boss if the work ain't complete! Wow, I am a genius!! (*self pats on back*). Even though I know it's pending, I am hell bent on wasting my time on the charms of the internet- social networking & stuff. I get these frightening looks from dad whenever he sees me wasting time but I seem not to be bothered! This is what happens when 24x7 internet is there at home and even when the power goes off, I can always connect it to my laptop and work(?humph work!) . Now I want the connection to be removed. It's like a sinful temptation- no matter how hard you try to control, you feel like going back to it. Oh! to be able to update your latest status to the world, to post your snaps, to chat endlessly with friends, to find your old friends and get new ones, to secretly snoop on each other's lives, to poke, to abuse...the list is endless. He surely is a genius- the creator of the 1st ever networking site. Yes, long ago I was bored of this, but now lately facebook has caught my fancy and I seem to be loving it.

So what's new? My new template here is new and I guess whenever I get my bouts of boredom and whenever writer's block plagues me, this would be my new pastime- changing & re-changing my template- the snazzier the better. The readers are welcome to comment whether they like it or not :) Also as you can see a new "Links U can use" section on the top right hand side has been added. Yesterday I got a mail from some Jenelia who claimed she was a web designer and will help me get my blog some traffic provided I put these site links here. Though I am not sure whether her claims are genuine or not but there is no harm in giving it a try. Hey, I don't mind an extra bit of publicity to this blog ;)

Coming back to point. Oh God! Please shower me with your blessings. Let me get enlightened, let the moment of truth roar at me so that I can actually start giving more importance to essential things in my life, rather than wasting my energy on futile things. Now only some magic can help me in getting this project completed.

Things you needn't know about me- Part 2

2009-06-14T18:30:00.006+05:30

Here is a partial insight to the inner workings of my twisted mind (in continuation of part 1)

1. I want to write a chick-lit novel before I turn 35 coz I have a feeling I have high chances of being single till(or even above!) that age (God forbid I don’t die single :D). These days it’s considered hip(atleast in some social circles) when you are a single, independent, modern working woman in your 30s and you are churning out books which appeal to the sensibilities of urban women a la Advaita Kala, Meenakshi Reddy Madhavan . Also it’s not just the hip factor which is tempting but I also think that I’ll be able to do justice to a plot of a chick-lit in a pretty decent way. Man, my mind does think romantic (and kinky) sometimes- both essential ingredients of a chick-lit.

2. My friends think that I am an emotion-less, stone-hearted person who doesn’t value relationships (My OB teacher also thought so). They also think I am way too mature for my age, (mentally), though my folks think exactly the opposite (they think I’ll never grow up and will forever behave childish). What do I think in this entire melee’? Well, I am definitely not emotion-less, the fact is that I don’t believe in showing my real emotions to the world. I am like a coconut, hard outside, soft inside. Why the hell should you expose your weaknesses to unknown people (knowing a person for 4 months or so doesn’t qualify him/her to be a sounding board for your feelings or secrets or whatsoever?).

3. I am not an attention- seeker. If attention comes my way (and most of the times it comes by unknowingly and for the wrong reasons), I don’t mind. Who doesn’t like being showered with attention? If you are human, you’ll love it (even animals love it). But I hate the ‘for the wrong reasons part’. What can I do , can’t help it – for one of the greatest misunderstood personalities that I am!!

4. Fair men are disgusting (was that too bad a word?). (If you are fair and a man and probably reading this, you’ll definitely hate this one). I mean specially that overtly clean, spruced up and fair look gets on my nerves unless he is working in the front-office of a 5-star hotel or a flight attendant. I don’t know but I feel that the fairness gives them a good boy image and that oh-so-damned mama’s boy image (*eeks*). Mama’s boys are the most disastrous species on earth. And the good-boy image is not that good (he’ll never know when to be bad *wink*). Ask any girl around, most of them like the classic clichéd TDH variety.

5. Ah yeah another hideous breed is what the fashionistas have termed the metrosexual lot –men who are explicitly concerned about the way they look. Those who go in for regular beauty treatments and are loaded with junk jewellery- studs, chains, bling and what not. I mean they should definitely be hygiene-conscious but not so obsessed with the way they look that they start outdoing the percentage of women going to beauty parlours. Guys are better when they behave like men and not exhibiting women-like qualities. Dudes, leave all that ‘sajna-savarna’ for the ladies. It’s their domain.

P.S.- A message for all the guys out there- Don’t ever be caught dead with that tube of ‘Fair and Handsome’ which I know most of you are secretly using :D

6. My concentration level, interest and attention span diminishes fast and coz of this I get bored easily. I will be doing one thing at a time and thinking of something entirely different at the same time. I don’t know what fancy name to give to this activity (like we have ‘multi tasking’ for doing 2 or more things at a time). What’s the name for thinking of something (or many things) different when you are working on one thing? Does anyone know?

7. And I can see the lost in interest now, I mean how much can one write about oneself and that too as if you guys want to know all this.. LOL. So here I am signing off for now. Ciao.

What happens when a guy's girlfriend and his good lady friend come together?

2009-06-13T23:37:00.002+05:30

The answer is lightning, thunderstorm, hailstorm and what not!!
I had told you in an earlier post that AM’s call was pending. He did call up and guess what; he wants me to move in with his girlfriend!!(*horror*). The moment I heard this my jaw dropped and I was like ‘Are you kidding? Come on this is not a time for silly jokes.” He said he was absolutely serious.

Well, I had asked him a couple of months ago to help me out in searching for a flat and a room-mate for me as I won’t be staying in the hostel this coming session (though I knew I was not asking him seriously coz ultimately these kinda important decisions are made by me and my folks, he seemed pretty forthcoming and said he’ll look for one!). And see what this guy does, he calls up one fine day, tells me I have found a perfect roommate for you. When asked about this girl, very calmly he says “my girlfriend’ and one is left gasping in disbelief.

This is a gist of how the conversation went:
Me- “What makes you think we are going to get along fine?”
AM- “I am sure you two will gel well ". (Thank God, he didn’t say we are gonna get along like a house on fire..LOL).
Me- “Do you wanna see cat-fights happening and one of the girls dead?”
AM- (He had nothing but a laugh for an answer)
Me- “How are you gonna introduce me to her? Will you say- Hey don’t you remember we had a conflict once coz of her.” (The cause of that spat is another story..)
AM- “I am not going to tell her it was you. She won’t come to know as she had neither seen you nor has she spoken to you. I will tell her she’s a good friend of mine.”
Me- “Ah! You think she’s that dumb”.

And this went on for a few minutes. Well I tried my level best to make him understand that I am not seeing this happening, tried to reason with him to be practical.
The result was pretty obvious- I wouldn’t relent and he had to give up. Though he was not happy with my answer, he agreed finally.

I was left wondering as to how could he even think of something weird and totally impractical thing like me staying with his gf. Was that an inane prank on his side? Could have been!

Things you needn't know about me- Part 1

2009-05-29T08:45:00.008+05:30

I am planning to write a series on this topic i.e. as and when I think of something hilarious/silly/interesting/nonsense statements about me (basically stuff which won’t make much sense or even any difference to you readers), I’ll share some of them here. Here goes the first set of them:-

1. At my home, my folks are the one who govern the remote control and the idiot box instead of me and I guess my place will be the only one where this kind of a situation happens rather than the other way round. And even if I protest that it’s my birthright to watch what I want, when I want , they have ways to shut my mouth and the innocent me (the mute spectator to the atyachaar ) easily surrenders.

2. My temper is explosive. I normally control it tremendously, but when it explodes, the greatest volcanoes will shy off. (ask my ex-roommate- we are the biggest enemies now)

3. I am an introvert (conditions apply). I normally don’t mingle easily, nor am I the first one to strike off a conversation but when I do start talking (and if I am in the mood), God save the listener.

4. An online friend (a person whose words I take quite seriously for the sheer wealth of his experience, age and wisdom) once commented that he sees traits of dual personality in me (*gasp*). I was so shocked that I started feeling queasy and imagining myself as a person with the personality disorder. I, infact started searching hysterically the net for the next 2 days on articles related to this topic. (I still feel he may have been right!)

5. I hate the vegetable lady’s finger (bhindi). I can eat any edible thing on this planet but the sight of this thing anywhere makes me wanna run miles away.

6. I kind of like the ‘thinking brood’ class of men, especially men with specs. The silent, serious, thinking, brooding lot really makes me curious about them. The types who are least bothered about the ‘most glamorous girl around’ and who look like as if they are seriously considering the global warming or what happened in Antarctica and as if the whole world economy is on their shoulders(*guffaws*). Anyways, there is a charm to them, the ‘forever engaged in thoughts’ personality, the ‘minimal speaker' (omg! Now I am going on & on. I better stop now.)

7. I hate make-up, and the rare times when I have to do it, it scares me off. I feel suffocated and feel I have been whitewashed with distemper and can’t wait till I get home, wash it off and feel human again.

8. My folks think that I am a hopeless, aimless, duffer, loser, good- for- nothing creature due to a lot of reasons, one of them is mentioned in the next point. ( A secret- I actually give them such an impression as I don’t want them to see me as super intelligent or super cool, which I am anyways not!! Though parents do wish their kid was like that.)

9. My career goals have never stuck to one field and till date it hasn’t. Throughout my life I have kept oscillating between aspiring to be a journalist, radio/video jockey, advertising/media/PR professional, cabin crew, fashion model (have I missed on something?..Yes, once I also wanted to be miss universe (holy joke!). And now in management (even this I am not sure of as I feel I’ll end up doing something else). Never once have I aspired to be a doctor, engineer, software/IT professional, and my dad still hates me for not having chosen engineering after XII. I have had a knack of most of the subjects but still have zilch knowledge of anything. An 11-year old kid whom I knew once commented “Jab dekho aap padhai karte rehte ho? Kabhi yeh padhte ho, kabhi wo padhte ho? Hamesha padhte rahoge to job kab karoge, shaadi kab karoge?”...LOL. I tried to explain things to her but she was not convinced :(

10. I am a narcissist, not an extreme one but yes, a mild self-obsession creeps in sometimes.

Why don't I write what I wish to write?

2009-05-27T10:04:00.006+05:30

I have so much to say, so much to vent out, so much to share. Some of them really intriguing and interesting; some of which I have never shared with anybody nor do I think I will ever. Everyone on this earth might have shared their deepest darkest secrets with atleast one person with whom he/she is really close, but unfortunately I have never had the courage to do so and the fact that I was never that close to anyone increased the chances of me keeping my confessions to myself, as most of the time I don’t allow anyone to intrude into my private space.

Once in a while it is kind of healthy to share things with people rather than letting them boil inside you and waiting for them to explode violently. But even the exploding part has never happened with me, things definitely boil and rage and do all kinds of drama inside my heart but I just don’t let them go.

The main reason behind starting this blog was to vent out all that raging fire inside but once my name was published and all that, I started restricting myself. You might be thinking that I should have kept a pseudonym. But then what’s the point, it feels silly writing without any real identity. It would have been interesting letting the world know the real you and what you have been upto all this time on this planet and I bet reading this blog would have been far more interesting with all the spices added on to it as a result of unleashing the real me.

I do think of starting another blog which would only be filled with the best (and the worst) of my life i.e. interesting and juicy tidbits of my life and of course it will written under a pseudonym. But you never know, the lazy bum that’s me foresees it as extra time consuming and energy taking.

When you are writing about yourself in a blog it also means you are baring out your soul for the world to see which is again something I will never want. So ultimately I end up writing only that stuff which I think will not make the readers judgmental about me (not that I care a lot about people being judgmental but it still makes a difference). For an intensely private person like me, it makes sense to watch what I write and measure each word before publishing. You never know who the reader will turn out to be. If the write-up turns out to be interesting (interesting means loading personal stories to a lot of people) and once the reader gets the thrill of prying on another person’s life through a blog, it kind of gives a voyeuristic pleasure to them as they’ll want to know what is going to happen next. It may go on to become an addiction. After all who doesn’t like to snoop on another’s life, isn’t it human nature? Each one of us has a peeping tom hidden deep inside. Can you deny that?

On one hand, I am also denying myself the satisfaction I’ll get out of venting out and looking at my issues from another person’s angle and knowing what they feel about the whole thing, receiving comments from different people and discussing and maybe ultimately even solving the issue. This is when writing under a fictitious name helps, one can go on and on without any inhibitions or whatsoever. But I don’t think I have the energy to invest my time and thought process on writing two separate blogs as I feel why not write in the existing one which already has some readers. This means putting a hold on my free-flowing thoughts and curbing them. As a result of which I feel bad sometimes for not being me and not writing what I actually want to. Now what do I end up writing usually- inane stuff.

I am waiting for that moment when I will throw caution to the winds and write no holds barred, a moment when I leave all the hang-ups and start being me.

Her human side, the sweltering heat & a mail

2009-05-18T22:49:00.006+05:30

She’s a human after all.
I got to see her human side today. ( Now why am I using the word 'human'. It's coz no matter how hard I try to make myself understand, I can't deny the fact that she does give me the jitters & interestingly she hasn't done anything demonic till now, not that I am waiting for it..LOL. My mind which, you by now know, is expert in fabricating things up imagines her persona to be..I don't know! Forget it.)

It was her birthday. We were called to the cafeteria to celebrate the D-day and boy wasn’t she looking thrilled and like a little kid. The twinkle in her eyes showed the excitement she was going through as everyone gathered around her to wish her, a big black forest cake waiting for her to cut.
She said this was the biggest audience she has ever seen on her b’day, thanks to all the trainees. Don’t know whether she said that mockingly or seriously. Without anyone prompting her she sang a song to which she said you might not have heard it before. It was true.

The heat is getting on to me like anything. Delhi summers are pathetic and the zillion power cuts at my place make it all the more traumatic. After a long day at work, the only thing which you long for is a bed and an air-conditioned room but the moment I am about to crash down, batti gul. Then I find myself cursing everyone- myself (for being in this wretched situation), my family (for buying a house here a decade back), and of course, the grand old government (for making poor citizens' life a living hell).

Meanwhile, got a mail from AM after a long gap. I saw it in the morning, asking me to call up as he had lost my number. I guess he has told me this thing a couple of times that he has lost his cell/lost his contacts. He was like “Why didn’t you call up for so long ? Do I need to send a mail to force you to call me,huh!". To which I said, “Hey it is me who was calling you up first for the last few months”, to which he mumbled something like “ idiot, I lost all contacts, I don’t have anyone’s no." I was about to reply to this that he put me on hold and then the line went blank. After that I went in for a shower and when I came back, saw 5 missed calls. When I called up it was switched off. Normally it happens when he has got a flight. So let’s see when do we get to talk next.

Since the time he has gone on commitment mode with P, the equation has changed. Things were pretty easy earlier, long chit-chat, friendship chatter n all. I still find it funny –the fact that she was insecure about all his female friends, especially me. She used to delete all my scraps from his orkut profile. Once she deleted my testimonial to him, I was so annoyed as I thought it was he who did that, sweet revenge took over me & I deleted his testimonial from my proflle. Then came to know she had his password n stuff & she was the one who deleted it. She had put restrictions on him as to who he'll call and with whom he'll be in touch with (sic).Those were terrible misunderstandings both from my side & her side. Thank God, things are sorted now. Anyway, I have stopped being in touch with him through net as it's P who is ruling over his mails & profiles!! I still feel she hates me though we have never spoken.
I can bet AM is damn crazy about P. Guess it's a professional bonding thing, they work as cabin crew with a leading international airline and that's what made them fall for each other (attraction at workplace! :D). He is also very protective about their relationship and doesn't tell me a thing which wasn't the case earlier.
Man, the girl is one lucky lass. God bless them!

Bossed up!

2009-05-11T16:52:00.003+05:30

Golden words are never repeated, they say. True.

There she goes saying those few and far in between 15 words & the most important ones but alas they'll never be repeated again. You hear it or you don't. Don't even dare to miss out on listening carefully to what she has to say.

Important people, you see speak less often but when they do speak, it'll be worth a million bucks.

Usually it's me who goes upto her and shows stuff which I did till now, all that time holding on to my breath waiting for her to open her mouth and reply/approve. But today she called me up when I was feeling dead sleepy (though she didn't know it) to give some info, (omg!...golden words) and trust me I didnt listen (I was only hearing) as I was so preoccupied with being all nice & professional & a willing worker & hard working etc etc that the moment I came to my senses it was over..she had spoken & ordered. I was left dazed.

You have this constant urge to show them that see guys, I am working and not wasting my time here. Sometimes you just don't know what's right and what's not . You are confused that whether you are doing the right thing. Most of the times I screw up things..but hey, I get it right too sometimes ( I am modest, you see...*smirk*)

Maybe I just imagine things up, in my mind I just give a big deal to things and blow them up. But ultimately it ends up being pretty simple things and when I look back at them I realise that I was unecessarily making a mountain out of a molehill.

By the way, I know she's sweet & helpful, it's only that she looks like that. Being at a position of authority does bring a kind of a scary look as you have so many responsibilities. Waise she doesn't order, she just tells and isn't that the way it should be rather than the other way round? Let me feel I am blessed. She has to be the good boss.

See I know all that. I am chillaxed now :)

Summers at Ranbaxy

2009-05-06T11:35:00.004+05:30

Summer training has started. Two more months to go for it to finish! Isn't it funny how I want it to finish asap in just 3 days of starting the project.

Friends at college think that it's beeen a smooth ride for me and it will be easy for me in the future. How ironic.. coz only I know the problems I am facing and the pain I undergo. Okay, it's true that I got the entry here in Ranbaxy as dad works here and I am also in the same department. But after that initial entry there's a whole lot of work to be done. I bet the project I have been given is not a wee bit easy. The work is tough dude..it actually is.

Nobody's a friend when you enter the corporate. You are just one in a million, just another face in the crowd out there to prove yourself in this rat race. In this dog eat dog world how far can one sustain, survive and succeed?

Exam dilemma

2009-04-20T23:47:00.000+05:30

Things can’t get worse than this. It’s 11.30 in the night and the end term papers start from tomorrow and wow this girl seems to have studied nothing despite of the fact that the books were all strewn across and the only thing she remembers now is that all this while somewhere in the subconscious of her mind she knew she had to study but it just didn’t happen! Instead she sits and decides that she’ll blog about her pathetic situation..lol.

This has always been the case with me, i.e. during exams my mind suddenly starts working overtime not for the subject which is due next day but rather it starts churning out philosophical stuff and lo! all the poetry and thoughts start flowing out of this li’l brain when it should be rather concentrating more on all those bloody MBA theories. I guess it’s because the brain becomes proactive and blocks out what seems unnecessary to it and thinks on more practical lines…howzzat? That’s what happens when you know you have realized it long time back that you are inadvertently chosen the wrong career path but it’s too late to rectify that mistake. So the only solution left is to tolerate what seems a utter waste of time and absolutely useless to one’s mighty self!!

For a long time now (maybe from the time I joined this ‘oh-so-loved-by-all’ MBA thingy) this has been my mantra in life –THIS TOO SHALL PASS i.e. somewhere deep inside a hope that this difficult situation will soon pass leading on to something better. Maybe this is what has got me going all these months when there where high chances of me dropping out of this course with the frequency with which this thought has crossed my mind in the last one year. So here I am hell bent on sticking on with it and torturing myself in return( yeah, a torture that it is to me!). Anyways then what was that one field which was meant for me..ah! that’s another long story. Will spill it out some other time. Till then adieu!
Here goes a little prayer so that I don’t flunk in the papers *sigh*.

Change

2009-04-16T20:03:00.002+05:30

Change is constant. People change,situations change,environment changes.
Its a universal phenomena that that the old has to be discarded to give way to new beginnings. And if one doesn't change then it means he is not a part of the natural process.
So why not change?

Holed up!!

2008-10-17T17:41:00.004+05:30

Hey people..... Man, I am back after eons!!!
I know it's been ages since I have blogged... as if I was hibernating in a dungeon...lol.
Anyways, can't tell you how much short I am on time even when writing this post...
Studies are taking a bigtime toll on my life(did anyone say MBA is easy...naaah!!)
Don't have time to breathe...life's revolving only around books, presentations, projects, assignments, vivas , exams etc etc.
God! when will I have a life of my own, a few minutes of peace?

Dreams,siestas etc.

2008-06-24T14:22:00.001+05:30

Just woke up from an afternoon siesta. Was that a dream I saw?(ha,some of them can be really unmentionable...lol). Feeling like blogging now. Infact,every now and then I feel like blogging,but either I get lazy or I feel that penning down thoughts in a diary takes far less time than typing on a keyboard. This way I am not doing justice to this blog as it's not serving the very purpose for which it was created,thanks to it's creator(me). Hope that improves soon.

I am still in a state of stupor and thinking of the dream I just saw. It's kind of funny as people think if it's day,then you are daydreaming, but isn't daydreaming something you do with your eyes open and which normally includes silly thoughts. Then what was that,- a siesta dream?? Whatever it was ,I was definitely not daydreaming (though I do that sometimes,but I am sure this time it was a dream I saw with my eyes closed..in my sleep). I know it's not unnatural if you dream, happens to everybody, but what if they start chasing you when you doze off!! Yeah, it seems to be happening with me-early morning, morning, noon, afternoon, evening, night,late night.. perhaps everyday. Most of them turn out to be nightmares,that too early in the morning(now according to good old superstition,if you see a dream early in the morning,it becomes true)!! In that case, why not a single of them turned out to be true...lolz (TOUCHWOOD!!)

I still remember once as a kid,one night while going off to sleep,I prayed to God asking him to make me dream that night(thinking of which makes me feel silly,but what to do,kids do the weirdest things sometimes). Fast forward to this day,I hate dreaming,just because the frequency and duration of them has increased, I mean I can go on dreaming in my deep slumber. I wonder why I dream so much- maybe my mind is filled with a variety of thoughts(ranging from good,bad to ugly), maybe I just need to get busy for a while(which is very soon going to happen), or maybe I just need to stop thinking too much(which is very difficult!).

The other day I got to read some truly inspiring quotes,one of them was " Much of what we imagine will become reality".If that's the case, I may or may not want half of what I imagine,rather dream to be true(obviously depends on whether they are good,bad or ugly).

Anyways, as dreams are tax-free and the human mind has no control on their occurence,I have no choice but to keep on dreaming till they stop chasing me...sigh!

yippee!!

2008-06-01T08:54:00.000+05:30

Finally the wait is over. Now i will be getting back to my studies after a long gap (phew, those couple of months felt like ages to me : . I am through with the admission process of the b-school. Yippee,i m happy that i m gonna do an MBA. Eagerly waiting for the classes to start and looking forward to my first ever experience in a hostel....hmm,though a bit apprehensive about it but definitely excited. My folks seem to be worried as they r still wondering as to how will i stay away 4m them :D. But i have told them like i'll be cool there. I really don't know what kind of a roomie will i get,whether she's gonna be the 'sudhri' types or the 'bigdi' types...lol!!

OMG it's difficult to wait for 1 more month.

misunderstood !

2008-04-28T19:02:00.000+05:30

Why am i often misunderstood...be it friends,family or even a stranger. No matter how hard i try, i end up getting misunderstood. So many times has it happened that i meant something else but what i ultimately conveyed was exactly the opposite. Just a few days back, i stumbled upon an article on numerology in the newspaper. It said that people who are number 4 are often misunderstood for they are original and creative in their ideas..sigh!! N yes, i am a number 4....which means people are not as creative as i am or maybe I am too difficult for them to understand !! :D ..hmm, some solace there :) Atleast now i can pacify myself that it's actually not my fault, it's the numbers out there which are at fault.

Now i can safely say what i want to without being conscious of the fact that somebody will get judgemental...for atleast, the numerologist understands me!!

mom , me & 'padhai'

2008-04-08T18:04:00.003+05:30

Had a long discussion today with mom about how the education system is ruining us. I have had hundreds of discussions on the same topic before , but somehow this seems to be my favourite subject(ah,poor me!!). Now i feel a big void in my life, for the fact that i never participated bigtime in any extra-curricular activities in school(am talking about major participation in sports,dance etc.),to the level that could be boasted of or for that matter have numerous certificates or awards to my credit. Whatever little i did apart from studies in school was basically small-scale(now difficult to go into details!!) .

What I get out of the whole system is that no matter,how intelligent or dumb you were throughout ur school life,it actually doesn't matter in the long run.What actually matters is what marks are displayed in ur XII marksheet. Literally ,ur whole life hangs on those numerals in that paper. Ofcourse,the educationists won't agree with me, for they will blabber about how u can make ur life better even if u don't get decent marks n blah blah n turn out to be successful. Aargh these lectures bug me. Now why am I cribbing about it now-it's just coz inspite of being a topper throughout my school life , I screwed up my XII exams...(sigh!)...& the ghost still haunts me ;)

Interestingly, my undergraduate college admission was totally based on my debating experience in school and not purely on my XII result!!(How IRONIC!!)

Now back to my discussion with mom(she now literally sleeps through the topic,for this may be the same topic nth time)...but kya kare aadat se majboor..lol. So i was telling her how school-life as a kid should not be be spent burdened with books but enjoying the joys of childhood, playing, 'masti-maaring' n what not.... puhleez no studies. Why to give unecessary burden on li'l minds?? Infact i have seen numerous cases who were dumb throughout school, but came out with flying colours in XII...the kind of kids who were busy playing forever, suddenly became serious in the last moment.

Moral of the story ;)

Concentrate on extra-curriculars in school & work hard only in ur XII, coz that's what matters ultimately. Extra-curriculars like music,dance,sports will be there with u throughout ur life & will also help in future admissions even if u don't have great scores in XII.. but the bookish,boring stuff in school...oh,never...it just filters out of the mind once out of school.

"Careless Whisper"

2008-04-03T14:09:00.000+05:30

One of my favourite evergreen tracks. The more i listen to it,the more i fall in love with it again n again. I feel as if i share a deep connection with this beautiful song (i maybe foolish but something like a past-life connection,considering the fact that it was created before i was born).

The lyrics-wonderful, rendition-mindblowing, music-amazing. I really don't know why but whenever i listen to it i feel so emotional(for it has the ability to bring tears to my eyes) just for its beautiful lyrics.. But hey,don't consider me to be an emotional fool...no worries,the song is awesome.
Cheers to George Michael :)

..I can now just go on & on about it... Better listen to it..

The lyrics:-

Careless whisper
I feel so unsure
as I take your hand and lead you to the dance floor
as the music dies,
something in your eyes
calls to mind the silver screen
and all its sad good-byes

I'm never gonna dance again
guilty feet have got no rhythm
though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool

Should've known better than to cheat a friend
and waste the chance that I've been given
so I'm never gonna dance again
the way I danced with you

Time can never mend
the careless whisper of a good friend
to the heart and mind
ignorance is kind
there's no comfort in the truth
pain is all you'll find

I'm never gonna dance again
guilty feet have got no rhythm
though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool

Should've known better than to cheat a friend
and waste this chance that I've been given
so I'm never gonna dance again
the way I danced with you

Never without your love

Tonight the music seems so loud
I wish that we could lose this crowd
Maybe it's better this way
We'd hurt each other with the things we'd want to say

We could have been so good together
We could have lived this dance forever
But no one's gonna dance with me
Please stay

And I'm never gonna dance again
guilty feet have got no rhythm
though it's easy to pretend
I know you're not a fool

Should've known better than to cheat a friend
and waste the chance that I've been given
so I'm never gonna dance again
the way I danced with you

(Now that you're gone) Now that you're gone
(Now that you're gone) What I did so wrong
that you had to leave me alone

sittin idle

2008-03-04T14:43:00.000+05:30

Why do i always feel some people have all the luck by their side? Or,everyone around has something or the other going in their life. And ME sitting idle with no work to do,nothing going on with me,no exciting stuff happening! It's absolutely AAWWful. Atleast this is what is happening at this point of time....i m totally velli. But this is not what one says:" Life seems greener on the other side". No,this ain't that...gotcha? Right now,at this particular moment I am totally work -less,well maybe not,coz I do daydream(isn't that a work?)..lolz!!

Anyways,just hoping for things to turn out well and...until then God save my idle mind from turning into a devil's workshop...or has it already?

Hmm...

2008-03-04T14:24:00.000+05:30

Sometimes it's just better to be left alone rather than being constantly nagged at. I feel i think better when solitude is my company, but they rarely understand this. Is it that one is always doin something wrong? NO, i don't think so. Inspite of being a major! A person learns from exploration n inquisitiveness, but disturbance (in the form of curiosity from their sides as to what i m doing etc.) hampers all that. Rather i end up being frustrated for no fault of mine! How do i explain things to them? If i do have a talk with them,they think i m talking nonsense or utter waste. huh! Mapa pleassse i m not doing anything disastrous rather i m just using my faculties for some constructive purposes which will be useful for me in the long run. If i m workin on my PC for a few extra hrs it doesn't mean i m goin down the dumps.... i may just turn out to be intelligent u see ;)

Freedom is my right according to the constitution. :)

SMS lingo's side effects

2008-03-03T18:02:00.000+05:30

You might have noticed,the language i use in my posts is a mix of SMS lingo & correct english phrases. The obvious reason is that we r so much addicted to our cellphones n text messages that it has affected our language bigtime. As a result,lack of patience seeps in & the last thing we wanna do is type in long words. So u'll notice-

- i,u(instead of I,U)

- 2,b,c (instead of to,be,see)

- short forms of the majority of words

- d,dey,dis(instead of the,they,this)

....and a host of other words.... list goes on....

A person who's not used to this kinda language may initially confuse it with crap language skills but hey, i don't think that in this age n time people r not aware of sms lingo(obviously if they r reading a blog on internet,it automatically means they r tech-savvy) .

Anyways can't change bad habits but trust me,no matter how we try to change our language to suit our needs ,the beauty of the English language lies in its phrases, punctuations & words.This can never be replaced with any SMS lingo.. With this i hope to use language correctly..but i know it's difficult to change. But it's ok...i m only blogginng yaar not sittting for an Eng. language test... :P

why not CAT?

2008-03-03T17:45:00.000+05:30

CAT- the biggest test for an MBA program was not attempted by me..yeah,that's right coz in the 1st case I didnt have a plan of writing it nor was I prepared for it .. so one fine day when I had made up my mind of doing an MBA..I thought I'll give MAT coz that was the only option left which seemed feasible to me n my dad. After that, what I thought to be a mountain actually turned out to be a molehill coz i scored farely decent marks n was flooded with offers(n still am).
But then nothing seemed to be appropriate, i mean not a single institute looked good inspite of being ranked decently in the numerous ranking-list published( ofcourse i m not talking about IIMs or the top 15 premier B-schools). But still,so what if i have not given CAT, the institute i wish to join in can atleast be worth the money i spend...isn't it?
So it's been quite a while since i have started crossing my fingers n wishing for some magic to happen so that i come out of this dilemna soon...OH! GOD PLEASE BLESS ME

Me & MBA

2008-03-03T15:32:00.000+05:30

For the past so many months, i m contemplating doing an MBA... I would have already started doing it provided i was ready to join one of the numerous pvt. B-schools that have thronged the length n breadth of delhi n NCR. With each passing day...the MBA dream either gets diminished or starts shining more than ever before, reason being the changes in my state of mind(which is at one point of time sad n dejected n then suddenly elated) . I always thought entrances for professional courses were one big mountain to climb as they were supposed to be soooo tough until i gave MAT & realised that it wasn't the way i thought about entrances(btw MAT is comparatively easier than most of d MBA entrances...hehe see how am making fun of my intelligence level!!)). .Anyways gave it a shot, passed it n now am flooded with hell lot of call letters from god-knows what all different kinds of institutes.
Now here i m undecided about which one to choose, confused( mayb the wires in my brain may be a tangled lot as of now).
to b continued...

Crib :/

2008-03-03T14:56:00.000+05:30

Dad gets irritated when he sees me whiling away my time on any of these sites...he loathes the idea of chatting or whatever crap is done on these sites and asks me to stay away from them. He probably thinks i m doing some kinda crime here or that chatting is harmful for my li'l brain.

social networking

2008-02-29T19:15:00.001+05:30

Finally social networking has its new meanings...
if u r not on one of these sites...u have not arrived.... so what if u r otherwise famous?..
well if to follow the crowd is the order of the day...so let it be...no fun in being left out..isn't it?
so maybe this feeling might have prompted me to join the "it" club once again...so that i m not left behind(huh!!).

But this time hoping n wishing sincerely that i don't get bored of them 'once again' n start hating them (yeah, coz till a few months back one was a regular on the popular social networking site orkut and then having had a knack of it for a while started loathing it and ultimately had to delete the profile coz one was soooo sick of it) . I mean, just think of it you don't know half of the people in ur profile n u r supposed to maintain those mandatory 'hi', hello','wassup' with them ..& those numerous friend requests..Oh! God, gets on ur nerves sometimes. So thought of keeping my mind away from it n taking a break :/

But now i am once again joining it(...u see i was missing it badly all these months..*smirk*). I mean seriously once u get used to something, u just can't do without it after a while, and these sites make one attached to them for the fact that u can stay in touch with so many people. Just hoping that i get some genuine(if that word exists) friends..
who can make my otherwise dull life just a bit exciting...

So here I am ...back with a bang!